Today I quote from First Things First by Stephen R Covey.
“Make and keep a promise-even if it means you’re going to need to get up earlier in the morning to get in your exercise. Be sure you don’t violate that commitment and be sure you don’t over-promise and under-deliver. Build slowly until your sense of honor becomes greater that your moods. Little by little, your faith in yourself will increase .”
Building trust that is what it is all about. When making promises to yourselves, do you keep it or do you find that breaking it is easier because you don’t write it down no concrete evidence you made a promise, meaning you don’t have to be accountable for the promise? It was during one of my daily morning paper writings that I discovered a key piece of self-awareness, I have trust issues with myself of all people. And here is what I found.
I don’t trust that I can overcome the old habit of overindulging on food. It is what contributed to my weight gain in the first place. Overindulgence was the cause and effect for my topping out at 240. Then with measured and control planning I reduce that the weight. Now I face a new challenge. I may have thought by saying reduce,( meaning to reduce was not to lose because when you lose something it can always find you) I was playing a trick on my mind however, here I am, 20 lbs have found me. Consequences of not dealing with an old habit; overindulgence on everything that is in my cupboard. The weight I need to reduce might as well be 80 lbs because I feel the same frustration. I find my self-confidence is eroding. Some of the old insecurities like negative self-talk are finding there way into my thought process. What I am going to do about this?
I have a plan of attack!
I am going to start my days with a plan; starting it fast, then through the day living purposefully so that when the day is over I will be getting stronger on trusting myself to keep focus on the goal. HEALTHY AND THINNER.
I am going to blog about this very private journey. Last Saturday I weighted myself for the first time in months and here is what I found. 22. 4 lbs that had returned to take up residence, total unwanted. However, I had contributed to the gain. I had made choices that give those pounds the fertile ground to multiply. The biggest choice I made was to let old habits creep back into my life. Making a plan will be the first step. To daily have a plan of what I will eat on record. To talk about it, accepting that I have to make a change in how I approach certain triggers. One such trigger is tiredness. When I am tired whether physical or emotional I turn to food. What is more comforting than a piece of cake? What I find is that there really is nothing in that moment appears more comforting than cake therefore my choices are do I go for the moments comfort knowing the consequences of having that cake will lead to more then one piece of cake in fact it will lead to a binge. Or I can choose to go for an alternative active such as walking, checking out what is on my priority list of things I would like to accomplish for the day, the purpose of the day.This requires a plan.
My trust issue is just that, I know I won’t just have one piece of cake if I choose that coping method. It will lead to one more and after that it is a free for all however, I don’t quite trust that I can walk away from the feeling of overwhelmness.
Now that I am aware of the trust factor I am asking the question. If I have this piece of cake how will I feel if I have another and another after that? I know what it feels like to break that promise to myself. I know how self-loathing I will feel because I have that experience therefore, I know that if I walk away and check out what I promised myself my sense of honor becomes greater than my mood.
This is a great foundation on which to build a trusting relationship with myself and the potentiality for this to impact on others whom I have a relationship with is endless. Little by little my faith will build until there is a trusting relationship with me, myself and I.
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